Monday, October 22, 2007

It's a.....

BABY GIRL!!!!!! She is healthy, active and looks beautiful! Sorry for the delay in announcing the news, I was away to see my family in Italy straight after. We are over the moon that everything looks as it should be and she is growing perfectly.

We are thinking of calling her Jade, my husband chose the name and I love it very much. She has been kicking like crazy and I cannot wait to cuddle her and kiss her. I still can't believe it. The next step is the birth really, just three months to go!!! Getting a little nervous about it, but I try not to worry too much, as billions of women have been through it and I am sure I will cope somehow. And at the end of the pain, there will be so much joy that no words can describe.

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

Pain and joy

On Thursday at 9.30am I have an ultrasound and we cannot wait to find out the sex of the baby, my husband thinks it's a boy, but I am not so sure. Either way we will be over the moon to watch him/her on the screen and check out that he is healthy and active. The little one has been kicking me for a while now and it's the most amazing feeling, better than anything in the world. I can't wait to meet the baby, but also I am fully enjoying this period in my life, as it is so precious and I feel very lucky.
Unfortunately there has been some trouble as I have been having a horrible time with my teeth and gums. I have had an ongoing infection since few weeks ago and a wisdom tooth that needs to come out, but the dentist wants to wait after the pregnancy to do the extraction.
In the meantime though I had to take antibiotics and painkillers to get the infection out. Now I got a root canal done on another tooth to try and see if that was what started the infection. Nobody seems to know much about what to do and I have been so scared with the medicine they gave me, they said they are safe in pregnancy, but medicine is medicine and I would have preferred not to take anything at all. I stopped smoking and drinking because I wanted to give the best start in life to my little one and then filling him with medicine and local anesthetic just got me so angry! I had to do it as they said the infection is worse for both of us, but it has been an agonizing time.
So the pain has been with me for nearly 4 weeks now, with brief relief in between, and I have gone through some horrible days when I had wanted to rip all my teeth out of my mouth. If any of you has ever had any tootache or abscess, then you know exactly what I mean. I feel better now and every day hope increases that I will be fine but at the same time I am just so scared that the infection will come back again (as it has twice already).
The dentist says that if we can hold on until the end of the pregnancy, then everything will be okay. Afterwards he will take care of it without having to worry about harming the baby.

So today is a good day and the pain is bearable, still in the background, but nothing I can't cope with. I feel optimistic and every time I feel a kick, it fills me with joy that makes me forget any pain in the world.

I will update you on Thursday!!!

Friday, September 28, 2007

Shining Through

I am back from my long long break! So many things have happened but the biggest one is that, as you might notice from my new picture, I am pregnant!!!
I am expecting our first baby and I am very excited and over the moon. Currently I am 5 months along and the baby is due in February 2008.

It was a planned pregnancy for Christmas, so it was a surprise that it happened now but we guessed that the baby didn't want to wait that long and wanted to come out earlier! We believe it's a boy, but we have no proof apart from our instinct. On Oct 11th we will find out the sex and we cannot wait.

Many welcome changes have happened in my life because of this pregnancy. The biggest one was quitting smoking, I did it as soon as I found out and was the best thing I could have ever done in my life but also the hardest. I was not smoking much at all to begin with but I missed it so much at first and temptation was strong, but thinking of what it could do to the little one inside me, helped me resist all urges. So today I am proudly free of the demon drug. I want to thank my husband for going through some terrible weeks during my withdrawals (I was an hysterical nervous wreck). Just imagine, pregnant, quitting smoking and Italian! Too much for any man to cope with! But he has and I am very proud of him.

The pregnancy so far has gone great, fingers crossed. I will keep any of you still out there updated about my progress, but I will try and not make this blog only about pregnancy and babies, promise!! Even though that's all I can think about now, I know it can get too much!

Thursday, May 17, 2007

Time Out

I am back from my very long break. I am sorry about my silence but I have been very busy looking for a new home for us. We had our notice to leave our home by the end of June and I was frantically searching for a new place in time. We have now found a lovely home in Greenwich and we cannot wait to move and start our new life.

Also I must admit I have been thinking about closing my blog, or maybe just taking a break from it. I just don't feel inspired at the moment and I feel that it would deserve much more time that I actually have available. At one point it felt like a chore, like something I have to do rather than something I enjoy. I won't stop though, I will just take a time out for a while and see how I feel.

But please keep checking once in a while, as I might find my inspiration back again!

Thank you for your wonderful support and encouragement in everything I have done and been through, I will always keep reading your blogs my dear lovely bloggers friends!

Saturday, April 21, 2007


I am listening to my Italian music and travelling back in time. It feels great to just give in to the nostalgia and be transported for one afternoon back to Italy, back to Rome.
I miss the sunshine, I miss the ice creams in the afternoon, the rides on the Vespa on a Sunday on our way to the center.

I miss Rome and its effortless beauty.

I miss the streets with its shops and its fountains and the people laughing and walking around on a summer evening. I miss our river, the Tiber, so slow and beautiful, the red sunset, the romance of it all. The red wine and the pizza, the air, the smell and the atmosphere of a beautiful city.
I remember the afternoons on the Pincio, from where you can see all the roofs of Rome. I remember the mornings skipping school, just hanging out in the streets, with nowhere to go, nothing to do but just exist. Sitting down on a bench just writing my diary.
The Colosseum, at the time a daily sight, now more special than anything. The Angel castle, St Peters, the cobbled streets, the churches, Trastevere, Porta Portese, all routine, now unattainable nostalgic dreams.
Rome, just the name evokes memories so strong they hurt. I was last in Rome in December, the sun was shining, I was driving a car for the first time in the city and everything felt just so right, every corner, every street felt like home. Every person felt like a friend, every building, every monument, every bus or every traffic light, felt so mine.
London is beautiful, but Rome...Rome is just it. There is no possible comparison. The feeling of love towards my city it's like an impossible love.
I cannot live there, it's crazy, the place is too expensive, there are no jobs, it's the most chaotic city on earth, the transport, the dirt, it's just too much. But take away the need to work or rent a place or travel on a deadline, and yes, it's the perfect place.
I don't mean to make it sound horrible, but if you do work there, it can be very stressful. At least it can if you want to be at work on time.
The traffic is outrageous, and the metro is nonexistent, the buses a joke.
But.....when you do go out and just enjoy the city with nowhere to go or nowhere to be, that's when you really take it all in and live it to the maximum. So maybe Rome is an holiday place, and that's what it will always be for me. My home, my holiday.

And that's how I can really love it so much. I doubt I would if I was there every day with the daily frustrations. So, if you are away from home, do give in to the occasional afternoon of nostalgia, but also think that you have changed and that maybe home is what you make, home is where you are growing up now and that home is just in your heart. And wherever you go, you are your home, you are the most important factor. It's not about the places where you were happier, BUT you make the places the happiest. So wherever you are, even far from 'home' just make the best of it, because maybe home is not home anymore.

Thursday, April 12, 2007

Happy Birthday Mamma!

Just wanted to dedicated a post to my mum, as today is her birthday!

Her name is Barbara and she has been a wonderful mum throughout my 31 years of age and I couldn't have been the person I am now without her guidance, her love, her advice and her strong belief in me.

I couldn't have managed to move to a different country without all that she has taught me and she has been incredibly brave in letting me go even though she knew she would miss me terribly and still does.

I miss you too mum, but the distance has made our relationship even more special.

Happy Birthday Mum! Buon Compleanno Mamma!!

Sunday, April 01, 2007

My first short story

As you might know, I love writing and my dream is to write a book. So a couple of months ago I started writing one, just to try, just to see what would come out.
I quickly realised that maybe I should start with short just seemed a gigantic task to write a book and I didn't feel ready for it I think. So, I changed genre and format and I ended up writing a thriller story. I wrote it in a week, mainly in the evenings before falling asleep and after a few days I was satisfied with the ending and showed it proudly to my husband. He loved it and proofread it for me, my grammar is not always up to scratch, and I left it at that.

After a few days, I didn't really know what to do with it, I wanted to share it with other people to see what they thought, and I decided to browse the Internet for websites about short stories and came across a short story competition. It was free to enter and so I thought, why not! There wasn't a cash prize, not that I hoped to win anything, but if you got into the top twenty your story would be published in a printed booklet.

So I sent out the story, and after 4 weeks I got an email on Friday from the editor:

'Congratulations! Your story has made it into the top twenty entries this month!'

I was over the moon! I could not believe it, I smiled and smiled until my cheeks were hurting! The booklet will arrive in the post in a couple of days and it doesn't matter that it's probably just a piece of A5 paper strung together, I will still be so happy to see my words printed!! I share this booklet with the other top entries - I can't wait to read their stories!

My story is not published on the website, only printed in the booklet, but if you want to check it out and you are into this genre, you can do so at the following link:


I can't wait now to start on my next story!